(Source: feellng)

I always say I’m done writing posts about you. &All this other shit. But I suck so yeah.

But I realized… I have the right to be mad. The right to be hurt. The right to be sad. I have the right to feel all of those things. I always said I had no right to feel any of those things because you were never actually mine. But I came to the realization that just because you weren’t mine doesn’t mean I couldn’t get hurt.

Everything was just a lie, a big ass lie. &I mean I fell for it so it’s basically my fault. But fuck man, did you ever stop to think about me? I mean maybe I’m analyzing and thinking about this way to much but fuck.

A part of me just wishes you just cared. I mean like at least a little, don’t I deserve that? I mean fuck. I’m a human too. I wasn’t just some object you could put on a shelf whenever you need it. I was also a fucking friend, asshole.

Silly me for actually fucking caring so much about you because that’s what “best” friends do.

I can’t wait for the where I don’t give a flying shit about you.


Shawn Mendes - Life of the Party

EMPTY ARENA! *Headphones Recommended* 

(via jessicah008)

"Regrets are a waste of time. They’re the past crippling you in the present."

— Fefe; Under the Tuscan Sun (via mylittlebookofquotes)

(Source: weheartit.com, via feellng)

A true story.

  • A: Do you ever think your depressed?
  • J: Yes.
  • A: What are you going to do?
  • J: Well see I feel like I've been so depressed for so long that I kinda of adapted to the lifestyle.
  • A: What do you mean?
  • J: Like what your depressed is, is basically the life I'm already living.
  • A: I don't follow...
  • J: Basically I think my whole life has been me being depressed and that I've become immune to it all that I can no longer tell the difference.
  • A: Aren't you scared?
  • J: Of what?
  • A: Of never being happy...
  • J: You can still be happy while living a depressed life.
  • A: But what if you never get better.
  • J: That's just life. You gotta make the most of it. Why are you asking me this?
  • A: I'm just scared that I'm starting to get depressed too....
  • J: Don't worry, doesn't seem like you're getting depressed.
  • A: How do you know that?
  • J: Because nobody asks someone else if their depressed because if they do... they're clueless to the matter.

Tags: A True Story


I wrote and recorded this myself on my lap top, for my brother…. Miyagi . this song was really just intended for him to hear….. but i thought it would be nice to share ….

i was so nervous to play it for him myself, so when i left to San Francisco on Thursday I had my TT play it for him….

She said his breath got calm as he listened and i know he heard every word ….

later that night he became the angel he was born to be and i am so grateful that he got to hear this before he left on his infinite journey….

now i hear him telling ME , what i was singing to him…  to not give up . 

i love you SO much Miyagi!!!! . Everything x2 now. Everything for you now …. 

this is so good. I love you jhene. <3